With this second book I’ve self-published, I know now that the euphoria of publication quickly evaporates once the upload process is completed.
For me this is almost like when my mania suddenly drops away and I feel the freefall down to, hopefully, my middle ground where I’m in balance with things most of the time.
Today, however, I feel the dropping sensation of a light depression. It’s not a major worry level event. It’s simply something I notice. It’s something of which I’m mindful and curious about. It’s nothing more than that.
It does feel strange to feel the downward sensation as I dip below my nominal level. Perhaps it’s the extra mania I felt as I worked hard to make my final tasks get completed so I could be done. Perhaps that’s the clue and crucial piece of information.